30 March 2008

100 Things

moi
1. I teach.
2. I want to live in London.
3. I have lived/studied there once, revisited twice.
4. I am newly married.
5. I was a very good runner once...still feel that the potential is there to still be good.
6. I love to knit.
7. I only know how to make scarves.
8. I want to learn how to sew.
9. I recently purchased my dream camera.
10. Everything about me is ready to be a mother.
11. I love digging in the dirt and planting things.
12. My sweet and I participate in a community garden project because we don't have our own backyard yet.
13. I love Body & Soul magazine.
14. I try to learn more about organic living all the time.
15. I want to join our local CSA next summer.
16. I love supporting local businesses.
17. My cats, Simba & Joonbug speak to me in their own version of kitty language.
18. I love the Kentucky Derby. Actually, the whole of the Triple Crown. I love horses, although I have never really been around them. I love something about them...they are mysterious to me.
19. I would love to have a drink and a conversation with Sting and Trudie Styler.
20. I have a dream wall in my bedroom, floor to ceiling, full of cut outs pasted on paper of how I envision my life to look like.
21. I am in denial that Cicely, Alaska isn't real, because I secretly want to move there and be Maggie O'Connell's BFF.
22. I want to have a water birth when I deliver.
23. I also want to hire a doula.
24. I was present at the birth of two of my nieces, also my god daughters.
25. My mom is my hero.
26. I know that part of my job in life is to find a way to take care of her in life so that she doesn't have to work so hard anymore.
27. I think Garrison Keillor's voice sounds like sweet honey.
28. There is nothing better tasting than an ice cold beer under the shade of a tree on a hot summer day.
29. Farmer's markets make me feel that people are still good and friendly and have an innate need for connection.
30. I have found the most perfect homemade bread, and I haven't turned back to store bought since.

31. I wish I had my mother's creative vision.
32. I wish I could work from home.
33. I think I may want to be a S.A.H.M.
34. I love to look at random Flickr sites and wonder about people's lives.
35. I am that type of vegetarian that only eats meat occasionally. Boy that sounds funny.
36. I want to grow my own food and eat seasonally and locally just like Barbara Kingsolver and her family.
37. I want to write a non-fiction book, but I am not sure of what I want to say.
38. I love love notes under my pillow.
39. Coffee is the most comforting smell early in the morning.
40. I can't relax in the spring until I see the swans who live in a small lake next to the highway that I travel on everyday to and from work.
41. I refuse to purchase certain favorite books...I wait and order them from the library once a year for a treat.
42. The older I get, the more old fashioned I become.
43. I love listening to my sweet's laugh...like when I am in the bedroom, and he is watching something on tv that makes him laugh uncontrollably.
44. I want to be buried at dusk, when the light in the sky is so beautiful you could just weep, with my favorite Jonatha Brooke song playing.
45. I believe in the power of positive thinking, I am just a bit rusty at it sometimes.
46. I hate my debt.
47. Birds fascinate me.
48. Birdsong is music to my ears, especially after a long winter.
49. Sometimes I wish I was a librarian.
50. I love books.
51. Lake Michigan is my favorite of the Great Lakes.
52. I wish I lived closer to my college friends.
53. I've wanted to build a strawbale home for years. It just makes sense to my brain.
54. Some conservative beliefs scare me to pieces.
55. Mary Oliver speaks to me in ways that no other writer has.
56. I would love to meet Anne Lamott.
57. My mother gave me a second (pet) name when I was little...Natasha Mirinda. She has no clue why.
58. I love believing in a beautiful, peacful, all loving God.
59. I am secretly jealous that Angelina Jolie is able to adopt all those wonderful children and have the multi-cultural family I have dreamed of having since I was little.
60. I love Christmas and Halloween.
61. The smell of a barbecue turns this mostly veggie's belly into wanting to partake in carniverous eating.
62. I would love to have a bookstore with a live-in cat that greets customers at the door.
63. Nature humbles me and grounds me.
64. I love cemeteries.
65. I like to look at cookbooks.
66. Recycling makes me feel good.
67. I am fascinated by cultures and traditions different than my own.
68. I wish I had the means to travel around and see the beauty of this world before I am no longer physically here to enjoy it.
69. I love a good snowstorm. From inside my cozy home, of course.
70. I have talked to the man in the moon for years now.
71. There is nothing like freshly washed and dried pjs and bed sheets.
72. I drink in the scent of peonies in the summer.
73. I call squirrels, "little buddies."
74. I look for the good in everything, according to my sweet.
75. I love the smell of health food stores.
76. I think collectively, runners are really good, down-to-earth people.
77. I want a kayak.
78. And a kick ass tent.
79. I can't wait to feel what pregnancy feels like.
80. I want to nurse my children.
81. I bought the first ring I tried on, and I think it is beautiful.
82. I love when my sweet sings, high-pitched tunes.
83. Carly Simon is a dream.
84. I want to go to Africa. Hell, I want to go everywhere.
85. I frequently calculate the 5 hour time change in my head and wonder what is happening in London.
86. Dragonflies are our friends.
87. I don't care to go out much. Being at home is where I love to be.
88. My mom's laugh is contagious and unforgettable.
89. I love that when certain movies are on tv that my sister and I love, we'll call each other and tell each other only the channel the movie is on, and we frantically turn there and start howling with laughter. i.e. Ferris Bueller's Day Off or Meet the Parents.
90. The documentary Planet Earth was overwhelmingly brilliant.
91. I love that I am learning that less is more.
92. Yet, there is nothing like a great find at a garage sale.
93. I love being in the world on early mornings before the world wakes up and starts rushing around.
94. Sitting on a bench in Kensington Park with a cup of coffee watching the world walk by may just be my favorite place.
95. I secretly wish I was in Jamie Oliver's position - he is just too cool.
96. I have eaten at his restaurant, Fifteen, and it was delicious.
97. I wear skirts just about every day in the summer.
98. I have never had a dog ever, but when I grow up, I am going to own a Weimaraner and name her Fern like the little girl in Charlotte's Web...which is my favorite children's book by the way.

99. The thought of not having my mom around makes me fight for air.
100. Relevance is very important to my living, and I see why taking every day with care and grace and thankfulness is so important.

morning, sunshine

the sing-songy birds awoke the bellies of the sleepy cats, and thus at 6-something, the yowling began. "mommy, poppy, please get up and feed us!" i only lasted in the dark warmth of my bed until shortly after seven, when s. came in to get his running clothes. i figured that my depression was coursing through my bloodstream yesterday, that i needed to sweat it out, so i got up and the two of us went on an early morning run together in the stillness of the morning.

i love when the world is still quiet and i am out in it. i loved running past the dark houses, imaging everyone cozy in their beds, snuggling deep down underneath their blankets full of warmth. i saw the back of one woman's head in her upstairs room, and with the rest of the house dark, imagined her reading a book that she hated to stop reading the night before, but had to lest she miss something while her eyelids drooped. she was loving the fact that her house was still and dark, and she could steal those quiet moments all to herself.

i did see some kitchen lights on, and imagined how the yummy coffee scent was permeating through the kitchen and slowly making its way up the stairs to the upper regions, where it reached a sleepy nose. my imagination certainly does run away with me sometimes.

the sky, where the sun was rising in the east, was a perfect baby powder pink, with wisps of periwinkle. it was soft and perfect. it was a perfect start to a great day, full of gratitude.

1. running in the early morning with my partner by my side

2. treated to a delicious breakfast of eggs, hashbrowns, bacon, pancakes, and hot coffee

3. planning my friend's birthday party - she loves a surprise

4. starting a new scarf

5. getting so much done before noon that we could just sit back and enjoy the laziness of the day. i do love our sundays together.

29 March 2008

gratitude five

ok, i at least have to leave a positive note to myself to remember the day...it wasn't all bad despite the stress i bring on myself....

1. hearing the birds at the crack of dawn singing the world awake. they are slowly flying back from their winter homes down south, and i just love them.

2. french toast on my homemade bread. with real butter and syrup and a hot cup of coffee, it was a saturday morning dream.

3. sunshine all day long.

4. clean pajamas after a hot bath that washed away the day.

5. forehead kisses and lots of hugs of support from my sweet, knowing that i was stressing the day away.